Really?? My way doesn't work???

When I lived with Ed, or rather when I chose to no longer live with him and try recovery, the early days of fighting back proved tough!!!  You see, in my mind if I chose recovery then that's what would happen. You can imagine my surprise when nothing changed and my frustration level simply rose and rose!!

Finally, what I realized was that I was still doing the same things, using my thinking and it dawned on me that 'my' thinking is what led me to Ed in the first place.  The reality was, therefore, if I wanted to leave Ed behind I had to do something different - in other words, trust someone else and try their suggestions for a while.

Wow!  What a concept!!  And needless to say, not one I was ready to try!!  After all, it would mean I had to truly relinquish all control for a while and well, I wasn't ready to do that.

It was only after I fell flat on my face time after time that I finally decided to take that leap of faith.  I took the risk and tried the suggestions my treatment team were making.  It made sense that if I was going to pay them all this money, why not actually try some of what they said would help me in my fight against Ed!!

Well, that leap of faith and trying their suggestions helped me find my way to freedom.  Granted, it was MY efforts that made it happen, but it was not always my thinking because in early recovery I realized that I could not trust myself because Ed was still so powerful.

Are you ready to trust your treatment team?  Are you ready to take their suggestions and actually put them  into action?  Go on, I DARE you to try it for just one week and see if anything shifts ...... you might be pleasantly surprised!  And if you hate the change, the reality is that we are all experts at living with Ed and can go back to him in a moment if that's what we choose!

Recovery is far from easy.  However, for me, once I took that step of finally embracing the suggestions coming my way, amazing things happened!!!!

So think about it!!  Who's way are you trying right now?  Are you ready to fight back and trust in your team?  I think you'll be shocked and pleasantly surprised if you do!!!