Learning to eat again!

So Sunday, I was blessed (not!!!) with getting a stomach virus.  Yup, around 6:30 pm it struck and it's been pretty rough since then.  Today is the first day that I actually have a little more energy and have managed to actually take a shower and get dressed!!

But, this blog is not about self-pity but in fact something completely different!!  You see, when getting a stomach virus, the last thing you are able to handle is food.  When living with Ed, this would have been something to celebrate, but in recovery I hate that my body is not able to get the nutrition it needs.  Even more so, being pregnant I had a slight freak out that it would be harmful to my little one - good news is that all is well!!

Today I finally took a risk and began to eat more solid food.  It reminded me in many ways of learning to eat again in early recovery.  I was scared - simply because I didn't want to get sick again!!  But, even though there may have been fear, the reality was that at some point I had to just take that leap and go for it!!  It's baby steps today.  There won't be any 3-course meals any time soon, but I also know that my body truly appreciated getting some nutrition that will allow me to heal and get my strength back.

Recovery is about sometimes just taking that leap.  Sure, there is always going to be fear to hold us back, but eventually we have to decide whether we want to stay in a state of fear permanently, or try something different that could lead us to a better place.

So as I take small steps in the next day or so, walk them with me!!  Take that risk of trying something new ..... you never know where it will take you!!