This morning as I was taking my medication, I manage to drop the little red pill into a sea of white ones. Yeah - not smart!! It was that feeling of hunting for a needle in a haystack because there was about 200 white pills compared to my one red!!! Fortunately, I kept hunting and found it.
In early recovery, 'freedom' is like that little red pill. It was this illusive thing I was searching for that seemed impossible to find. I knew it was there, I'd had glimpses, but other things seem to overpower it and I thought I'd never find way to fight Ed and have recovery in there for good.
But here's the thing. If you keep fighting, are persistent, and dig your way through the 'crap', you'll eventually find full freedom - I promise!!
So start today! Start tossing out that huge pile of white pills to find your way to the minute red one. Begin with just one thing you're going to work on throwing aside - go on, I DARE you!!!