Suddenly!!!!

I came home tonight to find my husband cutting the grass.  After winter is ended, and spring well and truly showing signs all around us, I can't help but share this again!
Our yard has been brown all winter.  The lack of life was apparent in all we saw out of the window and you couldn't help but wonder after several nights of frost, whether the grass would ever re-gain it's rich, green appearance that gave life to our yard or if it was lost forever.
And then, without even noticing, we suddenly have to find the lawnmower, wipe off the dust, and put it to use and cut the grass that is now too long!  The lushness surrounds us and life is evident everywhere!!
So why am I blogging about the grass in our backyard?  Well, I guess I can't help but see the parallel between the growth of grass and the process of recovery.  In the depths of the disease, my life felt as though it were non-existent, essentially I'd 'died', and I felt hopeless with no belief that I could recover.  I was the brown, lifeless grass in my back yard.
The process to recovery was slow, but you know what, suddenly I realized that Ed was not a constant in my life and it was no longer a day to day battle.  In the midst of my hard work, I wasn't really aware of the growth I was making because at times it was so small it seemed irrelevant.  And yet, those tiny steps added up and before I knew it, had formed one giant leap that was leading me to freedom!  Yes, just as the grass needs cutting and yet you've not noticed it growing, the same is true of recovery!
And so my reminder to you is that the next time you feel like you're not making progress, go out and look at some grass;  stare at it, study it and see if you can watch the growth happen.  I can guarantee you won't, but you will certainly have to cut it again in a week!!
Recovery happens.  It may seem slow, it may seem like no progress is being made, but so long as you're  doing the work and utilizing your support, you'll be amazed at what is really going on underneath!!!
Keep fighting - you can do this!!!!